Looking back now, my teen years and in my twenties, I can remember always being afraid. I worried so much that I had headaches. During my undergraduate year, in college, I dealt with panic attacks. And I confess, I am a control freak. I want to know everything about everything. I struggled to trust God because I was looking at the present circumstance I was in or the trouble that seemed to surround me. I worried because I did not believe that God loved me or cared about my future. I thought of myself and my life as a "leftover," and God would get to me when He could.
If I could speak to my twenty-three-year-old self, I would say, be still and know who your God is. He is a refuge, He is in control and can be trusted. You don't have to worry about Him forgetting about you and any situation that comes your way, God is aware. In fact, nothing that will ever happen to you will pass through his hand without him knowing. God is all-knowing. Put your trust in the One, who by his strong arm, lead his people through the red sea. Trust in the One, who made and established the earth on its foundation. God is a loving Father and always present, he doesn't sit back and doesn't care about what concerns you. His word says trust in the Lord at all times, pour out your heart, God is a refuge. Tell God how you feel, don't try to be the person who says "I'm okay" or "I'm blessed," but really, you're worried and sad about what going on or what will happen in the future. Don't ignore your pain instead tell God and remind yourself of who God is. God is faithful, patient, kind, and his thoughts of you are precious, and he desires to give you a future and a hope.