Monday, April 28, 2008

WAIT . . . . .

Today in Chapel we talk about a topic that most Christians might find hard to do and that is to WAIT. For me personal waiting is hard because I’m so use to always being on the move, always doing something after another. It is hard for me to just wait. In Chapel they speaker pointed out that the:

A- Anticipate
I- Intercede
T- Trust.

The speaker was pointing out how sometimes Christian find it hard to wait on the Lord. We pray for something and then we give up because we might find it hopeless and after while we stop waiting, praying and trusting in the Lord. Today was an encouragement because I wanted to give up praying for my family salvation, that the Lord would saved, I wanted to give up praying for the internal struggles that I was dealing with and stop praying about everything else. Sometimes I find myself stop praying that God would give me a gentle and quiet spirit and so much more. Stop praying for my desires of being that biblical woman and glorify God in every way. But today has reminded me to not give up, to wait, pray and trust in the Lord.

Monday, April 21, 2008

What Message Am I Sending?

I am learning that the clothes I wear sends a message to those around me. I use to want to wear reveling clothes because I wanted the attention from boys. You see, I was always the girl in the background and the only way I would get notice is by talking. I live in a world that tells us women that less clothes is better. Or even being a virgin, the world thinks that saving oneself for their future mate is a waste. But I am a Christian, I should not be of this world, I should conform to the image of Christ Jesus:

as obedient children, not conforming yourselves to the former lusts, as in your ignorance; 15 but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, 16 because it is written, “Be holy, for I am holy.” 1 Peter 1:14-16

As a young Christian woman I want and should show other women what modesty is all about. I want to show others that virginity is a way of thinking, living and sate of being. I don’t need to show all of my skin to get attention and waiting for my husband is not a waste, when I am with him on that special day I don’t want to bring any baggage on that day.

The royal daughter is all glorious within the palace; Her clothing is woven with gold. Psalm 45:13

Sunday, April 20, 2008


I’ve been thinking a lot about hospitality and wanting to have a heart of hospitality. I was reading a story in a book that I am reading Raising Maidens of Virtue by Stacy McDonald, in which friends travel to visit the Millers. As soon as the Millers open their door they were ushered in by a loving family. I loved how the book describe the Millers house as “warm, cozy, and without a word, we somehow knew we were welcome”. I thought it was awesome to know they the Millers made their guess feel welcome. I hardly see that kind of hospitality but after reading this story I know want to always make people feel welcome. I think showing hospitality to others will “exemplify the Gospel in a living way” and will “communicate the scriptural directive of putting others before ourselves”. I pray that I will have a heart that love to serve others.

Taming the Tongue

Our God warns us about the power of the tongue:
A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger. The tongue of the wise uses knowledge rightly, But the mouth of fools pours forth foolishness. Proverbs 15:1-2.

Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things. See how great a forest a little fire kindles! 6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell. James 3:5-6.

I realize that I need to watch out for the things that come out of my mouth. There are times I have hurt people with my words and after I said the things I said I do not feel any better. I pray that the Lord will forgive for the mean things I have said and those I have hurt with my words to forgive me. I pray that there will be a guard over my lips. I want my talk to be to the glory of God and will edify those around me.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Those Days

I loved it when there were times I could be alone with God for hours and never get tried. I loved that as the day went on I would jot a list of things I wanted to talk to God about. I loved the quiet moments in life and the times I would meditate on the Lord and His Word. My desire is to never let my life get so full that I never had a chance when I could just be alone with God. There are times when I do let the fullness of this life get all of my focus and form then on my life is out of control. I feel like there is no order in my life (when those busy days come). I am afraid that I will let months go by, get so wrap around the world that I will lose the importance of life. My Savior is the most important thing and I need to put Him first before all things. I’m not saying that other things are not important, I just saying that God comes first in the morning and then the other stuff. I want to get everything in order but I feel so out of order that I just don’t know how the get things back on the right track. I need prayer that I will be diligent in everything and that I won’t get so wrap up in the world. I want to be close to God, I don’t want to ever feel spiritual dry. In those tough days I want to get closer to God; to lean on Him.

What a Wonderful Day!!!


Saturday morning started off with me, praying and reading my bible. After that I had watch a movie and me and my roommate decide to spend a day in downtown Nyack. The weather was so perfect, I thought it was going to rain but it did not.We went to the park, had the best lunch ever at Art Cafe, and just walk around for alomst five hours and it was worth it.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Mission to Chinatown

I recently went on a mission trip to Chinatown; at my college we call it “Missions on the Shoestring. In which our college reaches out to other communities like Philadelphia, Manhattan, and the Bronx, I have never been on a mission trip so I took this opportunity to go to Chinatown, it wasn’t overseas but it was similar. Some of the students and I stayed at Chinese church and from than on the trip was amazing. I learn so much about the Chinese culture. I saw many Buddhist temples that unbelievers worship their god, we ate their traditional food (ducks feet, chicken feet, noodles, and many more I can’t name them all). We had the opportunity to reach out the people of Chinatown; it was pretty hard to talk to them because many of them did not speak English, but we did not give up. We prayed for them and ask that the Lord would give us more chances to reach out to them. We prayed that the Lord will draw Himself nearer to them and save them. This mission trip has shown me the importance of reaching the people about the Gospel and to never give up. I pray that the Lord will give me the boldness to reach people from all backgrounds about Gospel.

In front of the Chinese Evangel Mission Church

Having our Bubble Tea

Hot Pot Diner Playing with the kids

Ladies talking a man

Buddist Temple

Everyone having fun

Ducks Feet

The Guys

The girls (Me in black shirt)


Tuesday, April 08, 2008

My Prayer

Father Please forgive me of every sin that I have done against you. Father please keep my face turned to you always. Do not let me desire, the things of this world, but give me the strength to turned to the beauty and goodness of You. Guide me in the direction that you have for me, and help me to not to turn away from You or even compromise. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Monday, April 07, 2008

My Savior

Every time I think of Jesus, I just can’t help it to be amaze. He is such a good Savior and sometimes, that seem to quickly slip my mind. He has totally been good to me when I don’t deserve it. I just pray that the Lord will help me to remember who He is and not to be so quick to forget Him. There is no one like Him; he loved me when I did not love myself. He answers my prayers; keep me and my family safe. He has helped me with college finances; help me when I was taking test. He heard me when I was a little girl and I asked him to save me. My Savior is my deliver, friend, strength, provider, healer and so much more. I pray that I not be so quick to forget the Lord and who he is.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

How Do You Know That You Are Saved?

This week I was doing self-examination to see where I was. I’m still growing as a Christian and I am still learning. So I doubted myself because when I look at myself I could only think that I was not a Christian, so I did a study and find out that I was a Christian and I am God’s child. I could not stop thinking that I kept on sinning against God and I hated that. I wanted to please God but I kept on giving into my flesh. After careful examination I find out that how you know you are saved is by repenting and believe in the Gospel. In that salvation is the work of God in one’s life. The Holy Spirit comes in when they are saved to convict, warn, strengthen, and to help the Christian to understand God’s Word. The believer lives a life of repentance, long to be with God more, thirst to be righteous, long to pray and talk to God, there is a hunger for God’s word and they will see life in a different way. Then I thought about the question than “why do I still sin” and find the answer in Romans 7:15-25 Romans 8:1-2

“15 For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. 16 If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. 17 But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. 19 For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. 20 Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. 21 I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. 22 For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin”.

“ 1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,[
a] who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death”.

Because I am in this flesh there will be times I will fall short, but I just need to come back to God and repent and ask the Lord to help me. I no longer want the things of this world even though sin is still present, it’s just that I see them differently and sin no longer controls me.

No Church to Call My Own

It has been almost eight months since I have left my church and it has been a hard time not having a church to call my own. I left the church because of the false doctrine and I felt lead by the Lord to no longer to attend and tell them why I left. I did not want to believe that I was in a church that was not sound and I did not want to leave. I wrote them a letter (explaining what the Lord has been showing me and telling me what I should do) and they have not talked to me since. I know that I should follow what the Lord is telling me even if it means that people will not like what the Lord tells me to do. To this day I watch out for what pastors and people might say about the Bible, rather it is sound or not, I don’t want to be sway into believing what someone might say about the Word of God. It is so easy to be lead into false doctrine. I have been praying that the Lord will lead me to the church He has for me. I can’t wait for that day because I really want to me in a community of believers to fellowship with them. I want to be in a sound church. I have visited some churches and have found myself wanting what they have. Most of the churches have ministries, close, friendly church members, Christ center messages and their teaching is sound doctrine. I hope and pray that I will find that some day.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Serving My Family

I have the desire to serve my family with all my heart and to love on them. I not going to tell a fib it can be hard because I can be lazy and sometimes it is just hard. I want to prepare myself for the time that I might have my own family (if Lord’s will). I pray to God that by God’s grace that I will serve them with all my heart and with joy. I find it amazing to hear about woman of God serving their family with joy and love. I sometimes hear women and how they feel that their family is a burden to them. And when I think about that and I wonder “is it that bad”? Will I don’t know but having a family can’t be that bad. I believe our family is a precious gift from God and I don’t think it is good to take them from grated. Sometimes our family can get us upset but at the end of the day they are our family and we should love them no matter what. I pray that I will serve my family well, in my single years and even when I get married and have children.

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