Friday, November 30, 2007

The World We Live In

The message in Chapel was awesome. The message was about AIDS, Sex-tracficing, and reaching out to the lost. It made me cry to know what kind of world we live in. People are hurting and dieing. And I want to do something, I have this desire( since I was younger) to adopted children from all backgrounds, love them, teach them about Christ. Grow them in a Christian home where there is a father and mother out there for the Lord. I don't know if that sound strange but it's a dream and desire I pray that will come true. I want to reach out to children through the social work carreer and my life.

In chapel a yound lady came to speack about this issuse on how God can use us in this generation to reach out to people. She show many clips that was about the opperssed and hurting people. This clips were so sad. I saw children not even 10 years old talking about what they had to do with men. I wonder how people can rape a child and get away with it. I believe I need to start praying for these people and kids. ( I hope to put the clips on my blog soon)

Then she show a clip with Martin L. King and what happen to him while he was home. One time while he was still up and his family were sleeping someone called him. They told him if dosen't stop doing what he was do, they would kill him and his family. That night King cried out to God for HIM to say his name, to speack to him. God did, He told him he will "never leave him". That made me cry. I prayed to God, this morning about what was going on in my heart. I told Him I wanted him to use me in my generation, for my dream of adopting kids, and reaching out to kids around the world. I pray that God will hear me and my desire to come true.
All I know is that I want to make a change and for HIM to use me in my generation.

Thursday, November 29, 2007


"Don't be afraid to fail in life but be afriad to succeed in things that are worthless"

I heard this statement one day in Chapel from a guess speaker and it said so much to me. Sometimes I am afirad to fail because I feel like I can't make it in this world unless I am successful in life. After hearing this statement I realizied that there will be times I will fail at certain things, one thing I don't want to do is succeed in things that are worthless. I want to succeed in life that are worthy, like staying close to my Abba Father and trusting him. To succeed in a job that I know I help someone in their sisutions. I hope to remember that it's okay to fall but don't stay there, get up and try again. Even to put off the things that have to no value and to turn to what matters the most and that is Jesus Christ.


This is so true......

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Bible Verse

Teach me, O LORD, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end.
Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.
Fulfill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared.

Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good.
How I long for your precepts! Preserve my life in your righteousness. Ps. 119:33-40

This verse means so much to me. I know that there are times I will lose track of what's important and have myself going after worthless things. I hate when I let the less important things have the center of my attention.

Monday, November 26, 2007


I spent another wonderful Thanksgiving with my family. I loved that I could go home for a week and just be with them. I was so happy to be home. Me and my brothers and sister made some of the food. I personally made the turkey, might sound strange but I loved that I could help. Now I can add turkey my list of "knowing how to cook". Before we ate we gave our thanks. It was so nice to hear what my mom and brothers and sister were thankful for. I am thankful for: being able to be home with my family, the food, friends, school, and for God saving me. I have so much to be thankful for and I don't want to take anything God gave me for grated. My family and I went to see This Christmas, it was a really good movie. I think I would want to see it again. One message I got from it, that no matter how tore up a your family is it important to stay close to each other and be there for one another.

My Prayer:
Abba Father in Heaven
Just want to take this moment to thank you again for everything you gave me. You have given me another Thanksgiving to spend with my family. I never thought I would make it this far in life but I have and I know it's because of you. Thank you for my family, I love them so much. I want to thank you for saving me, being there for me, and loving me. Your love is so amazing and I can't put it in words how you make me feel or who you are. I thank you for my fisrt semester in college. I serously don't know if I'll be in college next year but I still want to thank you. No matter what happen I want to thank you. Thank you for my brothers and sisters in the Faith, I love them so much. I want to also thank you for everything, I am so thankful for everything.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Spritiual Actitives

One thing I love about being in college that they have a lot of activtites for the students. I remember the begining of the year I'd join at least eight clubs but after awhile only went to three. I don't know what I was thinking join so many clubs but I had to cut down because some of the clubs did not work with my sheldule. So finial I chose to go to the Ex Nilo, The Fire, and the ANSWER. I almost forgot I join the Social Work Ogranzation. I love to go the The EX becuase it's about prayer and having bible studies. One thing I love that they do is circle around someone who needs prayer and prayer for them. I remember one time I was REALLY stressed about school and I just needed prayer and they were there. The Fire is when a group of students come togther (sometimes by a fire outside or we will go into a building) to have worship. We also pray for things inside and outside the campus. The ANSWER is another really good club that I love to go to. I love that it's brothers and sisters in the faith coming together to fellowship with one another. I love that is a place were we can be honest with one another and lay out any problems we have. Another club I join was the Social Work Organzation, its a really nice club to join becuase we get to make a difference in the commuinty. One thing we will be do is rising money for AIDS Awarness, I came up with an idea that we could get people to write letters of encourgement for those who have AIDS.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Sun rise in the Morning

Sun rise in from the fourth floor of my dorm room

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I am very excited to know that now I am a Nyack College student. I loved the day I moved in and saw my roommates, it was so exciting. I didn't know what to expect but I knew that I wanted to do my best in college, my new friends and have a good time. When I first step foot on this campus it was very beautiful and peaceful but I did see things on this college that I did not like. For existence since it was a Christian school I thought that people would not be doing ungodly things (what a foolish thought) but I learned that not everyone is saved in this school. I was really hurt to know that my brothers and sisters in Christ were sinning against God and they loved it. Funny that they didn't think of how God felt. I could not understand how a Christian could laugh at the thought of sinning against God. I will be praying for them.

The first few weeks I was confused about a lot of things here. I started to wonder why I'm I in this school? I knew God put me here, but for what reason? I started to get tried, sad, and weak in school. I wasn't doing well in school and my grades shown it. It is almost to the end of the semester and I feel very tried and anxious about my grades. I know I have a Father that put me here and even help my mom paid the tuition for school, I don't believe He would leave me here and not help me. I don't know what to expect at the end of this semester but I do know that I am trusting God. I love this school and all that it offer. I'm not ready to leave right now, I want to continue in school and make good grades. All I know now I'm studying, trusting God and that my life is in His Hands. If I don't do well here I going to another college and work twice as hard. I believe that my Father is with me. I trust in him.

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