Sunday, December 23, 2007

Merry Christmas

I want to wish everyone a wonderful Christmas. I pray that everyone enjoy this day with family and friends.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Prasie God

I want to Praise God for helping me with my first semester in college. I just got my grades and I did really good. I never thought I would do so well, I want to ask God to forgive me becuase I did not tust Him or believe in Him when he said everything will be okay. He wanted me to trust him. I thank you Father for your love and grace. Thanks Dad.

My Grades

College Writing- A-
College Reading- A
Learning Theory- A
Foundations foe Excellence- B-
I got a (P) Pass becuase I don't get any credit only a Pass or Fail but I Pass.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

The Wise Woman

Please listen to the sermons that Pastor Eric Mason from Epiphany Fellowship on the Wise woman: . It is a great sermon that women should listen to.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Authentic Beauty

This book called "Authentic Beauty" by Leslie Ludy is a book that has taught me about being a set-apart yong woman. I learn about being pure and waiting for God. I don't need to be aggressive toward a guy to get his attention or be agressive because if I not I want get a husband. If there is someone out there for me, God will send him to me. I need to pure and holy young lady. So many times girls will be agressive to get boys attention or assure themselves that they will get a man. I need to focus on God and growing into a relationship with Him first. Let Him to transfrom me into the woman He wants me to be. I think this boook is really good to read, it will help young woman see the importance of being a set apart woman for God.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Secret Santa

Me and my two roommates Heather and Melinda exchange our gifts for our so called "secret" Santa. I say "secret" because we were trying so to hard to figure out who had who. But it was there was a easy way to finding out. You see I had Melinda to give a present, so I knew that Heather did not have Melinda but ME (LOL). It was so funny. All of our gifts were really nice. From Heather, I got a bracelet, chocolate (smelling good) candle (that I REALLY wanted to eat) and Chai Tea. It was nice. Heather got from Melinda, a necklace, earrings, jewelry box. I got Melinda, a journal, bracelet, and soap (smells really good).In the room we played Christmas songs, then we went to a last breakfast that the college was having for everyone. It was a great night.

I realize that

the Lord has been showing me so many things about myself this frist semster in college. It's amazing what the Lord shows his people about themselves and HIMSELF.

I learn about myself....

I learn that I need to trust Him.

Spend time with Him, and stop being lazy.

Have a compassionate heart

Continue to pray, do not stop.

Recieve Him

Let Him lead

He is Faithful

Be grateful

Prepare yourself

Love Him

There have been so much the Lord has been showing me. Many times, I cried at what he shown me because it is just so overwhleming. I do pray that God will continue to show me my ways that are not like his. The fact he even cares, make me cry. I want to trust God and love Him with all my heart. I pray that the Lord will help me with all my strggles and ways.

Monday, December 10, 2007


Abba Father

I want to first thank you for everything that you have done. Today walking, on campus I could not stop looking at the nature. I could stop admiring, all you made. Father I want to pray for all the children who are hurting, Father I know how it feels to be hurt but just as you have healed me, heal them. Father protect them and take all pain away from them. I am very sadden at what is going on in this world people killing each other, divorcing, fighting and so much. Lord change their hearts, draw them nearer to you. I pray for my peers becuase in today's soceity many of them are lost. Draw them nearer to you and save them. Show them that you love them and they don't need to want until they are thrithy to come to you. They can accept you now not down the road where its not even promise that they will make it the next day. In your Name, Amen.

Praying for my family

I'm reading this book called "Praying for you family: An Enternal Legacy" by Sammy Tippit. The reason I got this book becuase I was and still is worried about my mother, brothers and sisters salvation. I could not stop worrying. My soul was very trouble and I could not stop it. I wanted God to save my family and for them to become Ambassadors for Christ. I wanted them to see how sinful they are and run to Christ. This book is such an encouragement, it tell the story of Tippit great grandmother and what a praying woman she was!!! I loved her and I don't even know her. But she prayed for her family for their salvation. It took many years but the prayer request came true. She was faithful in praying for her family. Tippit told another true story of a woman for her son, who had a son that did not care for God but after more than 30 years he was saved. I was like, WOW amazing!!! I felt like if I continue to pray for my family salvation they can get saved. This made to continue to pray for them and have faith in my God. I really don't know when He will answer my prayer but I still want to pray. This book is full of lessons that I have learned about:

The Meeting Place

Praying for Your Family

Praying for Yor Children

Praying with a Forgiven Heart

Tearing Down Strong Holds

Desperate Praying

Leaving a Legacy

I really like this book it has encourage to to continue to pray when things seem to be getting worst. I know that I will have faith in my Savior, He is faithful. I don't know what he will answer but I will contine to pray.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Becoming Esther

I was looking at an article written by Charo and Paul Washer and I learned a lot about godly woman. It starts off by telling of the perparation Esther had to go through before meeting the King. She had to "learn the ways of the kingdom to which she belonged, she had to learn the manners of court life, the intellectual, emotinal, and spiritural challenges of high position". She basically had be be "transformed from a young lady into a queen before she could wear the title and fulfill the role". I learn that as a single woman that I need to prepared myself and learn the ways of the Kingdom of Heaven before God untied me with my mate (that is if he has one for me). I must be prepare intelletually, emotionally, spritiually by God, His Word, and talk to older women who have been prepared. There is so much to learn from this article. I hope women will read it at

I learn that as a young woman, I have all the time to get to know God personally and become the woman of God he wants me to be. I don't know if God has a earthy husband for me but I want and will get to know HIM. I think it is important that I get to know him and prepare myself for what's to come.

Bible Verse

"For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

I pray to God that I will please Him not men. Many times I try to please men but not my Father because I didn't want others to think bad of me. But I thought I don't want to please men, I want to please the God one gave me life. He is my all not men

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Women of Excellence

I read about the "Women of Excellence" in this small book that I recently got, by Cynthia Healrd and it was such an eye opener to what a women of excellence is. The first time I can remember hearing that word was in the beginning of the school year. I did not know what it meant but I wanted to know the true meaning a women of excellence. I love how this small book broke it down about the women of excellence. Healrd first look at the word excel which means to "surpass, transcend, exceed". "The Greek word translated "excellent" in the New Testament comes from diahero, which literally means "transport” or "differ", "best", "the highest and best". She also talks to about the different synonyms for a woman of excellence:
  • "A women of strength-- worth, braver, capability" Ruth 3:11
  • "A virtuous and worthy wife-earnest and strong in character" Proverbs 12:4
  • "A capable, intelligent and virtuous woman" Proverbs 31:10
I could not wait to read more so I could get a better understanding of a woman of excellence. Healrd talked about the qualities of pursuing to become a woman of excellence.
Women Of Excellence:
  1. Knowing God Intimately
  2. Becoming Excellent
  3. Abiding in Christ
  4. Surrender
  5. Obedience
  6. Discipline
  7. Discretion
  8. A Gentle and Quiet Spirit
  9. Holiness
  10. Wisdom
  11. Taking Responsibility
I look at this list and I just can't stop thinking about a woman of excellence. I know that half, maybe all I just can't do by myself and become that woman. But reading this booklet I know only by his grace, I will become a woman of excellence and I know that will be a progress. But I am ready for God to just lead me and teach me. Help me to become all he wants me to be.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

My Personal Mission Statement

  • Listen- be slow to speak, listen then give thoughts.
  • Love- frist love God with all you heart,love others and love yourself.
  • Trust- Trust God, the one who will never leave or hurt you. Let him direct your life.
  • Believe- know in your heart that you can do all things through Christ. Never give up on anything.
  • Campassonate- have this in you and you will go far in life.
  • Pray- be a praying woman of God, no matter how big or small the sisution is pray.
  • Be Humble- don't be prideful in life. Pride leads people in a downward life.
  • Succeed- in things that are worthy.
  • Confidence- is the trait you need to keep your head up.
  • Rest- in God, lay everything before him and don't stress or you'll end up with gray hair.
  • Wisdom- grow in wisdom.

Friday, November 30, 2007

The World We Live In

The message in Chapel was awesome. The message was about AIDS, Sex-tracficing, and reaching out to the lost. It made me cry to know what kind of world we live in. People are hurting and dieing. And I want to do something, I have this desire( since I was younger) to adopted children from all backgrounds, love them, teach them about Christ. Grow them in a Christian home where there is a father and mother out there for the Lord. I don't know if that sound strange but it's a dream and desire I pray that will come true. I want to reach out to children through the social work carreer and my life.

In chapel a yound lady came to speack about this issuse on how God can use us in this generation to reach out to people. She show many clips that was about the opperssed and hurting people. This clips were so sad. I saw children not even 10 years old talking about what they had to do with men. I wonder how people can rape a child and get away with it. I believe I need to start praying for these people and kids. ( I hope to put the clips on my blog soon)

Then she show a clip with Martin L. King and what happen to him while he was home. One time while he was still up and his family were sleeping someone called him. They told him if dosen't stop doing what he was do, they would kill him and his family. That night King cried out to God for HIM to say his name, to speack to him. God did, He told him he will "never leave him". That made me cry. I prayed to God, this morning about what was going on in my heart. I told Him I wanted him to use me in my generation, for my dream of adopting kids, and reaching out to kids around the world. I pray that God will hear me and my desire to come true.
All I know is that I want to make a change and for HIM to use me in my generation.

Thursday, November 29, 2007


"Don't be afraid to fail in life but be afriad to succeed in things that are worthless"

I heard this statement one day in Chapel from a guess speaker and it said so much to me. Sometimes I am afirad to fail because I feel like I can't make it in this world unless I am successful in life. After hearing this statement I realizied that there will be times I will fail at certain things, one thing I don't want to do is succeed in things that are worthless. I want to succeed in life that are worthy, like staying close to my Abba Father and trusting him. To succeed in a job that I know I help someone in their sisutions. I hope to remember that it's okay to fall but don't stay there, get up and try again. Even to put off the things that have to no value and to turn to what matters the most and that is Jesus Christ.


This is so true......

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Bible Verse

Teach me, O LORD, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end.
Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.
Fulfill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared.

Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good.
How I long for your precepts! Preserve my life in your righteousness. Ps. 119:33-40

This verse means so much to me. I know that there are times I will lose track of what's important and have myself going after worthless things. I hate when I let the less important things have the center of my attention.

Monday, November 26, 2007


I spent another wonderful Thanksgiving with my family. I loved that I could go home for a week and just be with them. I was so happy to be home. Me and my brothers and sister made some of the food. I personally made the turkey, might sound strange but I loved that I could help. Now I can add turkey my list of "knowing how to cook". Before we ate we gave our thanks. It was so nice to hear what my mom and brothers and sister were thankful for. I am thankful for: being able to be home with my family, the food, friends, school, and for God saving me. I have so much to be thankful for and I don't want to take anything God gave me for grated. My family and I went to see This Christmas, it was a really good movie. I think I would want to see it again. One message I got from it, that no matter how tore up a your family is it important to stay close to each other and be there for one another.

My Prayer:
Abba Father in Heaven
Just want to take this moment to thank you again for everything you gave me. You have given me another Thanksgiving to spend with my family. I never thought I would make it this far in life but I have and I know it's because of you. Thank you for my family, I love them so much. I want to thank you for saving me, being there for me, and loving me. Your love is so amazing and I can't put it in words how you make me feel or who you are. I thank you for my fisrt semester in college. I serously don't know if I'll be in college next year but I still want to thank you. No matter what happen I want to thank you. Thank you for my brothers and sisters in the Faith, I love them so much. I want to also thank you for everything, I am so thankful for everything.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Spritiual Actitives

One thing I love about being in college that they have a lot of activtites for the students. I remember the begining of the year I'd join at least eight clubs but after awhile only went to three. I don't know what I was thinking join so many clubs but I had to cut down because some of the clubs did not work with my sheldule. So finial I chose to go to the Ex Nilo, The Fire, and the ANSWER. I almost forgot I join the Social Work Ogranzation. I love to go the The EX becuase it's about prayer and having bible studies. One thing I love that they do is circle around someone who needs prayer and prayer for them. I remember one time I was REALLY stressed about school and I just needed prayer and they were there. The Fire is when a group of students come togther (sometimes by a fire outside or we will go into a building) to have worship. We also pray for things inside and outside the campus. The ANSWER is another really good club that I love to go to. I love that it's brothers and sisters in the faith coming together to fellowship with one another. I love that is a place were we can be honest with one another and lay out any problems we have. Another club I join was the Social Work Organzation, its a really nice club to join becuase we get to make a difference in the commuinty. One thing we will be do is rising money for AIDS Awarness, I came up with an idea that we could get people to write letters of encourgement for those who have AIDS.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Sun rise in the Morning

Sun rise in from the fourth floor of my dorm room

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I am very excited to know that now I am a Nyack College student. I loved the day I moved in and saw my roommates, it was so exciting. I didn't know what to expect but I knew that I wanted to do my best in college, my new friends and have a good time. When I first step foot on this campus it was very beautiful and peaceful but I did see things on this college that I did not like. For existence since it was a Christian school I thought that people would not be doing ungodly things (what a foolish thought) but I learned that not everyone is saved in this school. I was really hurt to know that my brothers and sisters in Christ were sinning against God and they loved it. Funny that they didn't think of how God felt. I could not understand how a Christian could laugh at the thought of sinning against God. I will be praying for them.

The first few weeks I was confused about a lot of things here. I started to wonder why I'm I in this school? I knew God put me here, but for what reason? I started to get tried, sad, and weak in school. I wasn't doing well in school and my grades shown it. It is almost to the end of the semester and I feel very tried and anxious about my grades. I know I have a Father that put me here and even help my mom paid the tuition for school, I don't believe He would leave me here and not help me. I don't know what to expect at the end of this semester but I do know that I am trusting God. I love this school and all that it offer. I'm not ready to leave right now, I want to continue in school and make good grades. All I know now I'm studying, trusting God and that my life is in His Hands. If I don't do well here I going to another college and work twice as hard. I believe that my Father is with me. I trust in him.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Legacy Conference

From Aug. 9-11, I was in Chicago, Illinois at the Disciplining Making Conference and I experienced so much in those three days. I meet my sisters in Christ at the airport and I first excited to get off the plane, second to be able to see my sisters again, and third to know I was going to the conference. I didn't know what to expect but I was ready for want was coming. That night we went to the Conference and had to pick a workshop to go into, I choose Sound Doctrine were Arziel, Shai Linne and Tony were teaching the class. That workshop was so amazing I never knew I could learn so much in that specific class, I was so overwhelmed by all that I was hearing. I want to cry because I was never taught those things in my church. I knew my church was teaching me somethings that were not biblical and I knew for the first time in that workshop I was learning. I loved that class and will never forget what I learned.

I experienced something else I never thought possible, I meet Shai linne and Trip Lee in person. I thought that was awesome. I ask 19 year old Trip Lee questions about college and they were helpful. I was really happy to meet Trip Lee because I look up to him and love his music. I also learn through this whole conference about introducing myself to my bothers and sisters in the faith, but especially my brothers in the faith. I never knew it was important to talk to them and have brotherly and sisterly relationship. I notice in the conference that some of my sisters in Christ were reaching out to the younger girls and I was amazed. I know I should be reaching out to those who are younger than I. On the last day we went out in Chicago to go out and witness to people. That was really cool to do that. I learned that people are really hurting and sad that they won't expect Jesus into their lives because of the pain they experienced in life. I wish people would see that God is the only way and He will never hurt them. I want to get those who are lost in my prayers.

While being in Chicago my sisters and I went downtown in the city to take a tour. I must say it was truly beautiful place. The city was very clean and the food was very and I mean VERY good. I tried their deep dish pizza that was amazing, I just wanted more of the pizza. One thing I didn't like was the traffic, the traffic was something else. It seem that every time we got on the highway, there was traffic. I never seen anything like that.

Those are just some of the things I experienced. I loved being in Chicago and I don't think I will ever forget those three days. I hope one day I go back to Chicago.

Friday, July 13, 2007

July 13, 1996

Today is the day that my dad died when I was eight years old. I can't believe it has been 10 years since he has been dead. He died of prostate cancer at the age of 28. I miss him a lot, because I can't see him. It hurts sometimes when I see daughters with their dad's and I wish it was me with my father. But it's not and I guess I have to move on with that thought. I can remember as a young girl how my dad taught me how to ride my bike, take me places and the fun we had. I miss him and love him. I will always remember my dad. When I was a little girl I can remember my prayer to God, asking HIM to tell my dad I love him (it was funny) .Wish I could have spent more time with him. I love my dad. I do want to say that I am very grateful for the times we spent together.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Graduration and my 19th Birthday

I can't believe that on June 22, 2007 was my graduation and my 19Th birthday. I can remember sitting at graduation thinking "wow I can't believe I am here". It was an amazing feeling that I can't explain. My family and friends came to celebrate with me and I was so happy. My family and friends and I went out to eat and later that night I got presents that I needed for college. On June 23, 2007 we celebrated on a boat and everything was great. The weather was real nice and we had a lot of fun.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Father's Day

Today is Father's Day and I want to say Happy Father's Day to all the dad's out there. I can't say that to my dad (well at least not face to face), my dad died when I was eight years old of prostate cancer. I remember that day and I don't think I will ever forget it no matter how hard I try to erase the memory of losing my dad. One thing I don't understand is "why did my dad died so young"? I wish I knew the answer. There is one thought that came to mind and that is if my dad would not have died would I have prayed to God almost every night? I really do miss my dad and I wish I could tell him I love him but I can't.

Now that I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ in my life, I want to have God as my Father. I pray to him and ask can we have a father and daughter relationship? I pray that we can. I really want to walk with God to places, like I see other girls with their dads at stores. It might seem weird but I want to have a father I can talk to about life and other things. I want God the Father as my father and want to be is daughter. I love to walk with HIM everywhere. Just me and Him.

I want to tell my Father, that I love HIM and that without him I am lost. I pray that I will be faithful and obedient. I never knew a God like mines could make me happy, be my helper, deliver, provider, resting place, my rock, my shield, and SO MUCH MORE. I am thankful that YOU draw me nearer to you. Now I know what life is. Thanks Father. I LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

My last year of high school

I can't believe school is over, I will miss school and all the people I have meet throughout my school year. I have gone through a lot in school from having low grades to people in school putting me down. I never thought I would make it this far in life especially the way I was before high school. I use to be a very shy and quiet girl but now I have gotten out of my shell. I use to be depressed but now I know who I am in God's eyes and I have confidence. I really have to thank Jesus because I know making the honor roll, passing all my exams, protecting me in school, making friends and getting into college was with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ help. I could not have made it this far without him.

Now I am looking forward to going to college, making new friends, joining clubs, and becoming a social worker. I pray to God that when I do go off to college HE will be by my side. I am a little scared because I don't know what's ahead. But I know as long as I got Jesus everything will be okay. Also, if I am faithful and obedient to God I will be successful.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Senior Award Night (June 7, 2007)

I remember getting a letter from my school saying I was invited to a senior award ceremony on June 7, 2007. I thought that I was getting award because I made the honor roll but something surprising happen. I can remember my guidance counselor saying these words:

The AAUW-Westchester Branch Outstanding Student Award, The Cooperative Scholarship Fund Award, The Ossining Golden Age Club #1 Award, and the Ossining Support Staff-Joyce Velardo Scholarship is awarded to ASIA BRAGGS.

I was shock, I didn't know I was getting four awards and 19 hundred in scholarships. I thank my Lord and Savior for that.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day and I pray that all the mothers around the world have a beautiful day and shown that they are loved. There are mom's out there that are great mothers and they will do anything for their children. I hope that kids across the world show their mothers that they are loved and appreciated. I believe that they need to know that. Some people don't have mothers and it really hurt them because they don't get to tell their mothers that they love them. There are some kids who don't show there mother love at all, but I pray that that will change. How can someone not show their own mother they love her? I pray that things will change in the homes of families across the world. I pray for the godly wife's and mothers that they know that what they do matters and that they are loved and bless.

I want to say that I really love my mom and don't know what I would do without her, she is a wonderful woman. I pray and hope she knows that. My brothers and I made our mom some breakfast and gave her gifts. My mom was very happy when we did that. I thank God for her.

My Internship

I started my internship on April 16 and so far it has been great. I work at a local children's center and I just love working and being around the kids. I hope to be a social worker working with kids that is my dream and now working with these kids, I know for sure this what I want to do. I'm learning how to interact with them, making them laugh and getting to know them. I ask some of kids questions and it has made me notice a lot about kids. They say what is on their mind, really nice kids, and easy to talk to. I have seen that kids do go through things but they handle it in a different way then adults, it seem to be easy for them to say sorry when they do something bad. So far this internship has been going well and I have find myself, it like I know what I want to do. As a little girl I have gone through many situations that made me depressed and lonely, and I hope to have a chance to reach out to kids and show them love and that there is someone that care for them. I don't know if I ever have a chance to adopt kids and bring them into a Christian home, with Christian values but I pray that my dream will come true.

Walking Thourgh Life Desert

I was listening to Nancy Leigh DeMoss on "Walking Through Life Desert" series in April, and it has been a great teaching. These series have made me prepare to what's ahead. Nancy series were about how Christians might go through things that seem to be hard right after something good just happen. For example, maybe a person has been in the God's Word and doing His will, but there will be a deserts we might go into. I never really notice that but I been through somethings when before I was doing good with God. Sometimes it might feel like God hate me or he is so far away. I have learn that I will go through things in life to grow as a Christian. If I never went through hard times I would not be seeking God or calling of Him. I learn a lot through these series. Also that everyone has a different desert than the next person. I believe now that I am ready and prepare. I hope to remember to call on God name to help me because I can't do anything without him. The series of "Walking Though Life Deserts" started on April 9, 2007 through April 20, 2007.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007


I read this book called The Little Red Book of Wisdom by Mark DeMoss and loved the book. A couple of things I like that was mention was reading a Proverbs a day for the month and I thought it was a great idea, I am now starting to do that. I have also been reading three Psalms a day (In that book I get to know God). In reading this book, I have changed how I do things, for instance I now try to write letters to people. I never really thought writing letters were important. Just knowing that letters can have an impact on people's lives make want to write letters of encouragement. I would recommend people read this book.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Im in so much pain

Last week I got sick, I felt so bad inside and out. My whole body hurt so bad and there was nothing I could do but be still and even than I was still in pain. It only got worst, I threw up more than four times at 1am and didn't stop till 3am. I am so tried to day. I didn't want to work because I was sick, but I went back to work, (still sick) my manger was so mean to me by saying "I think I can come in here and work whenever I felt like it". That's not true, when I sick I'm sick. I'm not trying to skip work or school. I felt so bad when she sad that, I wanted to cry(when I am sick I get so emotional). I been out from school and I know when I go back I will have a lot of homework. It sucks but I do need time off, just like my doctor told me. I have not been able to spend time with God without being sleepy. My doctor tells me I'll be in this pain for at least 1 days. Feel like it will last longer.

Monday, April 16, 2007


I live in a world where there is very few people to look up to. Someone who is positive role model. I don't want to look up to people who loves this world more than God. People who have more love for this world are enemies of God (James 4:4). I admire people who put God first, love Him more than themselves, keep seeking His face, and have wisdom. I can learn from theses people.

I admire Da'Truth a christian rapper out there for God. He seem like a good man of God. I seen a video of him talking about his wife and I was amazed, in today's world very few men talk about their wife with love. I admire him for that. I pray that all men will respect their wife's and love them.

I admire Cece Winans, she has a family, a Christian singer, someone you can tell love God. She is out there trying to reach younger women about God. Showing us young ladies who we are to God. I love that about her. I remember seeing her at the Always Sisters Conference and I love the way she talks about her family. Anyone can tell she love her family. I look up to her as a woman of God doing God's will. I love the way she presents her self, dressing modest. I just love her!!!

I admire Nancy Leigh DeMoss, she is truly a great woman of God. I have been listening to her on podcast and I just love the series that she does. I have learn so much. I think I am ready to deal with things that might come my way because of her series on the Bible. I love when she does her series on being modest and Proverbs 31 women. Last week I was listening to her speak on "Walking through Life Deserts". I love that series because when I am in a situation that seem to hard, I know what to do. I love this woman.

I admire two very young ladies I have come to know and they are Chaka and Eva. I love these two ladies. I like that they are representing God in their lives. Seeking his face.


In my church yesterday we were talking about our dreams as Christians. I thought about my dream and I pray that it comes true. I want to become a social worker that help kids. I really love children, they are full of life. I love it when you ask a child a question they will tell you the truth, instead of lying like us grown ups. I know first hand that life as a child is not easy. When I went to school I was scared and felt like no one cared about me. I later on in life find out that people do care about me and most importantly I am loved by Christ Jesus. But, anyway I want to show children the LOVE of GOD and show them that he cares for them. To tell them that God made them very special.

I pray to God that he will send me a godly husband with the characterises God want in his men. I want to fall in love with this men heart first. I pray to God over years He will make me into a praying, pure, holy, women of God. I pray that I will become the Proverbs 31 women with Christ help. As a little girl I always wanted to adopted children and grow them in a Christian home. I never grew up in a Christian home. But, if I have children I would want them too. I hope to adopted at least 5 children and live in a home that me and my husband bought. I pray that God's will be done.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

My Art Work

I want to thank God that I can play the piano, paint, draw, and take pictures. I might not know how to sing but I do have some kind of talent. I am grateful for that. I sometimes hear people complain that they don't have any talents or something that is cool, but I think that we all have something we can do or good at in life. Rather that be encouraging people, cleaning, cooking ,singing, being a good friend, we all have something that we should be grateful for. Being a good friend is what people need when they need someone to talk to. Or encouraging people can make someone day by just telling them that everything will be okay or some other words of encouragement. Like I said before we all have something to offer. No matter how stupid someone might call it.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

High School

Being a senior or just being in high school is hard. Especially when you are a Christian that is following Him. I think like most young people you want to fit in but as a Christian it might be hard trying to fit in with this world. The world view of things are totally different from God's. I sometimes think to myself do I want to fit in this world or with God. I know that living in this world I can get addicted to it. I can fall in love with all the shoes, clothes, and boys. I'm a girl so I guess it would be human nature for me to want those things. But as I get older and have a relationship with God, all I want is Him. I see so many girls in my school who are just giving themselves to boys. So many of them go from boys to boys. Having sex and kissing each other. I use to want that because I wanted that love (at least I thought that was love). For someone to hold me. I see now that is not what life is and that is not the kind of love I want. I want to be love like it says in 1 Corinthians 13:4-5:
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

I thought love was all about the moment you seen a guy and base on his looks, your heart goes crazy. I thought that at times it keep you being reminded of what you did wrong, hurt, a feeling inside, maybe a guy would go up your head( because you did something to deserve it). I know it might sound crazy but when you are surrounded around that, in your mind that is love. I see this verse and I continue to have a relationship with God I know know what love is. I see these girls at my school and I like these girls were just like me. I want to tell them about this wonderful God. To tell them about love. I pray to God that he will give me the opportunity to witness to these young ladies. I want to talk to them and share the good news with them.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Spending Time with God

I have been spending time with God and I never knew that spending time with my Father could be so exciting. In spending time with him, I tell the Lord everything and I mean everything. I love that I can be honest about situations going on in my life and to know that it is okay to cry, be happy, and tell God all my secrets. I know it might sound crazy to tell God something that HE already knows about but to me, I think it is so cool to know that I can have a relationship with God and be honest with him. I tell him the truth about how I feel about things and I tell him all my worries and joys. I want to continue to have that kind of relationship with the Lord. I really want to get closer to HIM. I have found myself asking Him to never leave me because I CANNOT live without Him. I want to be an ambassador for Christ and to be sold out for him. I sometimes say that I want to be crazy for Him more than the girls that are crazy for Usher or maybe even Bow Wow. I was looking at Isaiah 54:5 For your Maker is your husband— the LORD Almighty is his name— the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. And I was like wow I want God to be my spiritual husband; my everything. I don't know if I will every get marry but right now I want God to be the head in my life. I talk to God about if I ever get married and I thought well if God's will I will get marry. So I figure right know I want want to live for Christ. I want Him to use me while I am young till the day I die. I don't want to wait till I'm 30 or 40 beccause I am not promise that I will even make to age 22. I want God now not down the road.

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